Ukwedelela labo abasesinyathelweni esisodwa esingezansi, umuzwa okhungathekisayo wokukhethwa, umuzwa wokuyekelela ngokuphelele - uhlangothi oluphambene lwe-elitism, umlobi uLeonid Kostyukov uyakholelwa.
Muva nje ngimenywe emgubhweni weminyaka yoKuphakama Kwesibili, futhi ngesizathu esithile angizange ngiye kuwo. Futhi awukwazi ukusho ukuthi bengingasithandi isikole sami…
Ngafunda lapho kusukela ngo-1972 kuya ku-1976, futhi ngokushesha nje lapho ngifika lapho, ngezwa injabulo. Ngangithanda ukuvuka ekuseni ngizihudule ngiye ngaphesheya kweMoscow. Okwani? Okokuqala - ukuxhumana nabantu ofunda nabo, abantu abathakazelisayo nabajabule. Ingabe sasineminyaka eyishumi nanhlanu ubudala, sizethemba, sigembula, sinekhono, siwumkhiqizo walesi sikole? Ngokwezinga elikhulu, yebo, ngenxa yokuthi isikole sethu sezibalo sagqama kakhulu uma siqhathaniswa nesizinda esivamile.
Ingabe ngiyayithanda ingane, ngokwesibonelo, engangiyikho? Ingabe lezi zici engangizama ngazo, ngawo wonke amandla ami, ukuzigxilisa ngokucophelela ezinganeni zami noma kubafundi ngemva kwalokho? Sisendaweni eshelelayo kakhulu lapha.
Ukubonga komuntu kubaluleke kakhulu: kubazali, othisha, isikhathi, indawo.
Ngokuphambene nalokho, ukukhononda kukamalume onezinwele ezimpunga ngamaphutha abanye abantu ekukhuleni kwakhe kuzwakala okudabukisayo futhi ngokuvamile akuthakazelisi muntu.
Ngakolunye uhlangothi, engikubonile kubonisa ukuthi ukubonga ngakho konke okwenzeka kuwe ngokuvamile kuhlanganiswe nokunganeliseki okuphelele. Futhi mina, bathi, ngiphuze iwayini lase-port, ngingena emaphoyiseni - pho kuthiwani? (Akavumi: wakhula kahle kakhulu.) Kodwa anginaso isiqiniseko sokuthi ngakhula kahle kangaka.
Kwadingeka nginyakaze kaninginingi futhi ngibuyekeze izimiso zami zokuphila kanye nemikhuba yansuku zonke, ngizizwe nginamahloni ngamazwi nangezenzo. Angazi noma ngingasibheka kahle yini isikole esangilolonga ngokwezinga elikhulu, kodwa ngizozama.
Abantu besibabukela phansi, sibaqonda njengeqeqebana labantu abangaphumelelanga emqhudelwaneni wamanyuvesi
Izibalo bezihamba phambili esikoleni sethu. Othisha kwezinye izifundo babehlukene kakhulu: elikhanyayo ngokwedlulele futhi bayakhohlwa, dissident futhi Soviet ngokuphelele. Lokhu, njengokungathi, kugcizelele ukubaluleka kwezibalo ohlelweni lwezindinganiso zesikole. Futhi njengoba umbono wobukhomanisi wawugcwele ukungqubuzana, awukwazanga ukumelana nokugxekwa kwengqondo ethambekele kwizibalo. Ukucabanga kwethu ngokukhululeka kwehliswe kwaba ukuphika kwakho.
Ikakhulukazi, isitayela esikhulu saseSoviet sashumayela ububele kulabo okuthiwa abantu. Abantu besibabukela phansi, sibaqonda njengeqeqebana labantu abangaphumelelanga emqhudelwaneni wamanyuvesi. Ngokuvamile, sibeka ukukhethwa kokuncintisana phezulu kakhulu, njengoba sesivele siphase kanye futhi sihlose ukudlula ngokuqhubekayo esikhathini esizayo.
Kukhona omunye umthombo womqondo wokukhethwa: ingane, ngisho nentsha, izibona ngaphakathi, nabanye abantu - ngaphandle. Okusho ukuthi, unombono okhohlisayo wokuthi yena ngokwakhe umzuzu ngamunye uphila impilo engokomoya ecebile ngama-nuances kanye nokuqhuma kwemizwelo, kuyilapho impilo engokomoya yabanye ikhona kuphela lapho ebona ukubonakaliswa kwayo.
Uma unomuzwa omude osemusha wokuthi (eyedwa noma ekanye nozakwabo) akafani nabanye abantu, yilapho enza izinto eziwubulima kakhulu. Lokhu kuchezuka kulawulwa wukubona ukuthi usekujuleni njengawo wonke umuntu. Okuholela ekuvuthweni nasekuzweleni abanye abantu.