Ukuqina, ukubekezelela ubunzima, ukuququda amazinyo, ukuphila siphakamise amakhanda ethu, singaceli ukusekelwa nosizo... Kithina kubonakala sengathi kuphela ngokuba njengalokhu, siyozuza inhlonipho nothando kunakho konke. abantu ababalulekile kithi. Kuvelaphi lokhu kufakwa futhi ingabe kunjalo ngempela? Isazi sokusebenza kwengqondo uGalina Turetskaya uyatshela.
"Akukho mandla, akukho sifiso sokuphila." - UNatasha wazivalela efulethini, wacwila ekucindezelekeni kombhede izinyanga ezimbalwa. Imali iyaphela. Wanqamula ubuhlobo nomuntu amthandayo, wawuyeka umsebenzi ...
Unguthunjana ekhaya, kodwa akakaze asizwe ngokwezimali. Ngisho nalapho okusanhlamvu kwaphela endlini eqashiwe futhi uNatasha waquleka ngenxa yendlala ebhasini, akazange aye ngisho nakubazali bakhe ukuze adle. Ingasaphathwa eyokucela ukubolekwa.
“Uma ngivuma ukuthi ngehlulekile bazoyeka ukungithanda.” Yiqiniso, akazange acabange ngakho ngendlela abantu abacabanga ngayo ngokuthi bazogqokani noma bazoyaphi eholidini. Kodwa umcabango wawujulile ngaphakathi. Nansi indlela: okokuqala sicabanga umcabango, bese uyasicabanga.
Inkolelo yokuthi “angithandwa uma ngibuthakathaka” yathatha isikhathi eside ukuba ithuthuke. Edlula ehhovisi lapho uNatasha esebenza khona, umama wayephathele udadewabo omdala ukudla kwasemini. Ngemva kweminyaka eminingi, uNatasha wabuza: “Mama, ngani?” Umama wamangala ngempela: “Yebo?! Anginilethelanga nobabili ukudla kwasemini?!»
Izinsuku zokuzalwa zikadade zazihlelwe kusenesikhathi, kwaxoxwa ngesipho emkhandlwini womndeni. Eziphoni zakhe, uNatasha ukhumbula unodoli kuphela - iminyaka eyisishiyagalombili.
Usuku lokuzalwa lokuqala ekuphileni okuzimele: umakhelwane wendawo yokulala wathenga ibhere le-teddy elikhulu nezimbali nge-scholarship - futhi wayengaqondi ukuthi kungani uNatasha enomsindo. Futhi kubonakala sengathi ugijimele eqinisweni njengesigxobo sesibani: kuvela ukuthi othile angase afune ukuthi ngibe neholide?! Kuyenzeka?
Ukuze uvulele uthando, kufanele uqale ubhekane nentukuthelo nentukuthelo futhi ukhale ngokulahlekelwa ngaphandle kokuzibeka icala ngobuthakathaka.
Alukho uthando, ngoba kukhona isimo sengqondo sokuba namandla? Noma ingabe kufanele uhlale uqinile ukuze uthole ngisho neluncane uthando? Kufana nengxabano yaphakade mayelana nokuthi yini efike kuqala, inkukhu noma iqanda. Okubalulekile akulona i-dialectic, kodwa umphumela.
"Ngiyabathanda abazali bami. Kusukela emandleni okugcina. Kodwa lokhu akusekho mayelana nothando, kodwa mayelana nokushoda kwalo, mayelana nesidingo sokumunca sokwamukelwa. Futhi ngaphakathi - ukucasuka anqwabelene. Kuzo zonke izinsuku zokuzalwa. Kukho konke ukudla okudlulayo. Imali ebolekwe kubazali iyona kuphela ebuyiselwa emuva. Futhi awukwazi ukucasulwa abazali bakho, kungenjalo ngeke bathande nhlobo?
Kodwa ukuze uvulele uthando, umuntu kufanele abhekane nentukuthelo nentukuthelo futhi alilele ukulahlekelwa ngaphandle kokuzibeka icala ngobuthakathaka. Kuphela ngemva kwalokho uNatasha wakwazi ukuvuma emndenini wakhe ukuthi akuyona yonke into ekuphileni kwakhe ehambisana illusion rainbow wadala. Futhi abazali bakhe abazange bamdudule! Kwavela ukuthi yena ngokwakhe wakha udonga lokungathandi ngezitini zeqhwa zokucasuka. Lokhu kubanda kwambopha, kungamvumeli ukuba aphefumule (ngomqondo ongokoqobo nongokomfanekiso, ngoba ukucasuka kubopha umzimba, kwenza ukuphefumula kubonakale phezulu) ...
Ezinsukwini ezimbalwa kamuva, uNatasha watshela ngezinyembezi ukuthi wafunda kanjani isihloko mayelana nokuphulukiswa kowesifazane: lapho ufika kumama wakho, beka ikhanda lakho emadolweni akhe ... : “Ndodakazi zinjani izindaba zakho? Woza uvakashe, ngizokuphakela ukudla okumnandi, bese silala nawe, ngizokuphulula ikhanda nje.”
Iqhwa liphukile. Nakanjani.