"Ah yebo Pushkin, ah yebo ndodana kanondindwa!" imbongi enkulu yajabula yodwa. Siyamamatheka: yebo uyingqondongqondo impela. Futhi sinobufakazi bokuthi uhlakaniphi akazange akweqe ukudumisa kwakhe. Kuthiwani ngathi thina bantu abafayo? Kukangaki sizincoma? Futhi ingabe ukudumisa ngokweqile akunakusilimaza?
Kwabaningi bethu, okungenani ngezinye izikhathi kufika isimo sokuzwana kwangaphakathi, lapho kubonakala sengathi singaziqhenya ngathi. Okungenani kanye empilweni, kodwa sithola le njabulo: isikhathi esiyivelakancane lapho ikhwaya yethu yonke yangaphakathi ikhipha ingoma yokudumisa. Umzali ongaphakathi ushiya umntwana wangaphakathi yedwa okwesikhashana, izwi lenhliziyo lihlabelela kanye nezwi lokucabanga, futhi umgxeki oyinhloko uyadamba kulobu buhle.
Isikhathi somlingo, esinobuhlakani. Lapho kuvame ukuvela ukuvumelana okunjalo kwangaphakathi, umuntu uba nenjabulo eyengeziwe. Sikulungele ukubeka eceleni isipiliyoni sokwehluleka, ukuxoxisana nanoma ubani, futhi ngendlela yokuthi bonke ababambe iqhaza ezingxoxweni bazozuza kuzo kuphela. Le njabulo ngokuvamile ifuna ukwabelana.
Uma ngibona izinguquko ezinjalo kuklayenti, ngibhekana nemizwa eminingi eyinkimbinkimbi: ngakolunye uhlangothi, isimo sihle, sikhiqiza, kodwa ngesikhathi esifanayo kunengozi enkulu yokuphula izinkuni.
Impilo yethu yonke sisenqubweni entengantengayo neyinkimbinkimbi yokuthola ukuzwana, bese siyalahlekelwa.
U-Karina waqala ukwelashwa esikhathini esingengakanani esidlule, futhi naye, njengeningi, kwakukhona "umphumela wokuqala", lapho umuntu ejabule ngokwakhe, ejabulela ukuthi uthathe lesi sinyathelo, futhi ufuna ngokungenakubekezelela ukuzwa imiphumela yokwelashwa. sebenza ngokushesha ngangokunokwenzeka. Kodwa-ke, ngokombono womelaphi, ukuqala kokwelapha kwehla ekwakheni ukuxhumana, ukuqoqa ulwazi, umlando wendaba. Ngokuvamile amasu amaningi nomsebenzi wesikole osetshenziswayo kulesi sigaba.
Konke lokhu kwamthakazelisa uKarina, indawo esekelayo yaholela eqinisweni lokuthi isikhashana ukuvumelana okuphelele kwabusa emhlabeni wakhe wangaphakathi.
Kuye ngokuvuthwa komuntu esimweni esinjalo sokuzwana, umuntu angakwazi ukwenza intuthuko yomuntu siqu noma ahambe ngendlela engafanele. UKarina uthole eyokugcina. Wakhuluma ngokuziqhenya ngeqiniso lokuthi wayebeke zonke izikhalo zakhe kubaba futhi, ngendlela yokugcina, wabeka imibandela yokuthi umndeni wabo uzoqhubeka kanjani nokuphila.
Ngilalele imininingwane yokumuka kwakhe, ngiqonda indlela amcasule ngayo ubaba, ngacabanga ukuthi ngabe lesi simo sasingase sihambe ngendlela ehlukile, ngokuvumelana. Ngesaba ukuthi kungenzeka. Kodwa ngantula ukuqapha lapho uKarina ephuma ehhovisi ezama ukuzethemba, ekhula aze abe nokuzethemba.
Kuyacaca ukuthi ukuzethemba okuvumelanayo kukude ngokwanele nesigxobo "sesidalwa esithuthumelayo", kodwa futhi kusukela esigxotsheni se-"permissiveness" futhi. Kuzo zonke izimpilo zethu, sisenqubweni enyakazayo neyinkimbinkimbi yokuthola lokhu kuvumelana, bese siyalahlekelwa.
Iyasisiza kulokhu, okuhlanganisa nempendulo evela emhlabeni. Endabeni kaKarina, kwaba nomthelela wezezimali. Ubaba wanquma lokhu: uma indodakazi ehlala ngaphansi kophahla lwakhe ifuna ukusho imithetho yayo, futhi ingathandi imithetho yakhe, khona-ke angayithanda kanjani imali yakhe? Ekugcineni, batholwa ngokwemithetho engahambisani naye.
Kwesinye isikhathi sizithola sisemseni wezihlungi: izibuko ezinombala orozi noma izihlungi zokwesaba nokungabi nalutho.
Futhi lokhu kwaba ukucindezela okubukhali kuKarina oneminyaka engu-22, ekhula ngokushesha kakhulu. Konke kungahamba ngendlela ehlukile, ngokuthambile.
Ngemva kokwenza amaphutha amaningi, namuhla uKarina uphila impilo yakhe, ngokusho kwakhe, imithetho yashintsha kakhulu. Kwelinye izwe, nomyeni, hhayi nobaba.
Ukuba yinkimbinkimbi kwempilo kaKarina kwamphoqa ukuba aphazamise ukwelashwa. Siyafonelana sixoxe nje izindaba. Ngiyambuza: ingabe uyazisola ngaleso sinyathelo esiwujuqu? Ungathanda ukwenza okuhlukile?
U-Karina uyayeka ukukhuluma, isithombe sakhe siyabanda esikrinini se-laptop yami. Ngicabanga ngezinkinga zokuxhumana, ngifuna ukucindezela okuthi "reset", kodwa isithombe sivele siphile, futhi uKarina, ngemva kokuma isikhathi eside okungajwayelekile neze kuye, uthi okokuqala ngemva kwesikhathi eside wakhumbula imiphumela yaleyo ngxoxo. nobaba.
Waqale wacasuka, kodwa manje usenamahloni phambi kwakhe. Wayengamtshelanga ngani! Kuhle ukuthi ubaba ube yindoda engomakadebona esikoleni esidala, engumuntu waseMpumalanga, futhi wenza okwakuwukuphela kwento efanele kuleso simo. Cha, uKarina akazisoli ngokwenzeka ngokulandelayo, kodwa uyaxolisa kakhulu ngoyise ...
Ngezinye izikhathi sizithola sisemseni wezihlungi: izibuko ezinombala oyirose, njengasendabeni kaKarina, lapho sizizwa njengabahlakaniphe kakhulu nababaluleke kakhulu emhlabeni, noma izihlungi zokwesaba nokungabi nalutho. Lokhu kwakamuva kuholela emiphumeleni eyinhlekelele nakakhulu kumuntu: ekunyakazeni ukuzethemba kukhona ukunyakaza ngokwako, nakuba kusendleleni engafanele. Akukho umnyakazo ekuzithobeni, wonke amathemba ajikijelwa ngaphandle, ezenzakalweni ezicatshangwayo ezinhle zokudalelwa.
Noma yini esiyizwayo, noma yini eyenzekayo, ingokwesikhashana. Imizwa yesikhashana, okuhlangenwe nakho. izinkolelo zesikhashana. Ukubukeka kwesikhashana. Lezi zinto zishintsha ngamanani ahlukene phakathi nokuphila. Umqondo wesinye isici uhlala ungashintshi - umphefumulo wethu.
Kubalulekile ukukhumbula, ukwenza ngemizwa noma, njengoba kubonakala, ngaphandle kwemizwelo, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi esikwenzayo kuhle emphefumulweni noma cha. Futhi uma ungakwazi ukuzitholela ngokwakho, yilokho okushiwo yizazi zokusebenza kwengqondo.