Kunamahemuhemu ahlukahlukene mayelana nokuzindla kwe-Vipassana. Abanye bathi lo mkhuba unzima kakhulu ngenxa yemithetho okucelwa abacabangi ukuthi bayilandele. Isimangalo sesibili sokuthi uVipassana waphendukela phansi ukuphila kwabo, kanti okwesithathu bathi babona lokhu, futhi abazange bashintshe nhlobo ngemva kwesifundo.
Ukuzindla kufundiswa ezifundweni zezinsuku eziyishumi emhlabeni jikelele. Phakathi nalezi zinsuku, abacabangi bagcina ukuthula okuphelele (ungakhulumisani nomunye nomunye noma nezwe langaphandle), bagweme ukubulala, ukuqamba amanga nokwenza ucansi, badle kuphela imifino, bangenzi ezinye izindlela, futhi bazindla amahora angaphezu kwe-10. usuku.
Ngithathe izifundo zeVipassana esikhungweni seDharmashringa eduze kwaseKathmandu futhi ngemva kokuzindla ngekhanda ngabhala la manothi.
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Njalo kusihlwa ngemva kokuzindla siza ekamelweni, lapho kukhona ama-plasma amabili - eyodwa eyamadoda, enye ngeyabesifazane. Sihlala phansi bese kuvela uMnumzane Goenka, uthisha wokuzindla esikrinini. Uyisidudla, uthanda umhlophe, futhi uhlala ezulazula izindaba ezibuhlungu esiswini. Ushiye isidumbu ngoSepthemba 2013. Kodwa nangu uphambi kwethu esikrinini, ephila. Ngaphambi kwekhamera, u-Goenka uziphatha ngokukhululekile ngokuphelele: unwaya ikhala lakhe, ushaya ikhala lakhe kakhulu, ubheka ngqo kuzindla. Futhi kubonakala sengathi iyaphila ngempela.
Ngami, ngambiza ngokuthi "umkhulu uGoenka", futhi kamuva - nje "umkhulu".
Indoda endala yaqala inkulumo yayo nge-dharma njalo kusihlwa ngamazwi athi "Namuhla bekuwusuku olunzima kakhulu" ("Namuhla bekuwusuku olunzima kakhulu"). Ngesikhathi esifanayo, inkulumo yakhe yayidabukisa futhi izwela kangangokuthi ezinsukwini ezimbili zokuqala ngawakholelwa la mazwi. Ngolwesithathu ngakhala okwehhashi lapho ngizwa. Yebo, uyasihleka nje!
Angizange ngihleke ngedwa. Kwezwakala esinye isililo esijabulisayo ngemuva. KwabeLungu abangaba ngu-20 ababelalele isifundo ngesiNgisi, mina kanye nale ntombazane sasihleka. Ngaphenduka futhi - njengoba kwakungenakwenzeka ukubuka amehlo - ngokushesha ngathatha isithombe sisonke. Wayenjena: ijazi lengwe, ama-leggings apinki nezinwele ezibomvu ezigoqene. Ikhala elimanzi. Ngafulathela. Inhliziyo yami ngandlela-thile yafudumala, futhi yonke le nkulumo sasiyihleka ndawonye ngezikhathi ezithile. Kwaba yimpumuzo enjalo.
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Namuhla ekuseni, phakathi kokuzindla kokuqala kusukela ngo-4.30 kuya ku-6.30 futhi okwesibili kusukela ngo-8.00 kuya ku-9.00, ngenze indaba.ukuthi thina - abaseYurophu, amaJapane, amaMelika namaRussia - siza kanjani e-Asia ukuze sizindle. Sihambisa amafoni nakho konke esikunikeze lapho. Kudlula izinsuku ezimbalwa. Sidla irayisi endaweni ye-lotus, abasebenzi abakhulumi nathi, sivuka ngo-4.30 ... Kafushane, njengenjwayelo. Kanye kuphela, ekuseni, kuvela umbhalo eduze kwehholo lokuzindla: “Uboshiwe. Kuze kube yilapho uthola ukukhanyiselwa, ngeke sikukhiphe.”
Futhi yini okufanele uyenze esimweni esinjalo? Zisindise? Yamukela isigwebo sikadilikajele?
Zindla isikhashana, mhlawumbe uzokwazi ngempela ukufeza okuthile esimweni esicindezelayo? Akwaziwa. Kodwa lonke ithimba kanye nazo zonke izinhlobo zokusabela komuntu umcabango wami wangibonisa ihora. Bekumnandi.
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Kusihlwa saphinde savakashela umkhulu uGoenka. Ngizithanda kakhulu izindaba zakhe ngoBuddha, ngoba ziphefumula iqiniso kanye nokujwayelekile - ngokungafani nezindaba ezimayelana noJesu Kristu.
Lapho ngilalela umkhulu, ngakhumbula indaba kaLazaru eseBhayibhelini. Ingqikithi yayo iwukuthi uJesu Kristu wafika endlini yezihlobo zikaLazaru oshonile. ULazaru wayesecishe wabola, kodwa bakhala kakhulu kangangokuthi uKristu, ukuze enze isimangaliso, wamvusa. Futhi bonke bakhazimulisa uKristu, futhi uLazaru, njengoba ngikhumbula, waba umfundi wakhe.
Nansi indaba efanayo, ngakolunye uhlangothi, kodwa ngakolunye uhlangothi, indaba ehluke ngokuphelele ku-Goenka.
Kwakukhona owesifazane. Ingane yakhe yashona. Wasangana nosizi. Wangena umuzi nomuzi, wayibamba ingane, watshela abantu ukuthi indodana yakhe ilele, ayifile. Wancenga abantu ukuthi bamsize avuke. Futhi abantu, bebona isimo salona wesifazane, bameluleka ukuba aye ku-Gautama Buddha - kungazelelwe angamsiza.
Owesifazane weza kuBuddha, wabona isimo sakhe wayesethi kuye: “Ngiyaluqonda usizi lwakho. Ungincengile. Ingane yakho ngizoyivusa uma ungaya kulo muzi manje uthole okungenani umuzi owodwa ongashonanga muntu eminyakeni eyikhulu.”
Owesifazane wajabula kakhulu futhi wahamba wayofuna indlu enjalo. Wangena kuzo zonke izindlu wahlangana nabantu abamtshela ngosizi lwabo. Kwenye indlu kwashona ubaba ongumondli womndeni wonke. Kwelinye, umama, kweyesithathu, umuntu omncane njengendodana yakhe. Lona wesifazane waqala ukulalela nokuzwelana nabantu ababemtshela ngosizi lwabo, wakwazi nokubatshela nangokwakhe.
Ngemva kokudlula kuzo zonke izindlu ezingu-100, wabuyela kuBuddha wathi, “Ngiyabona ukuthi indodana yami ishonile. Nginosizi njengalabo bantu basesigodini. Sonke siyaphila futhi sonke siyafa. Uyazi ukuthi yini okufanele uyenze ukuze ukufa kungabi usizi olungaka kithi sonke? UBuddha wamfundisa ukuzindla, wakhanyiselwa futhi waqala ukufundisa ukuzindla kwabanye.
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Ngendlela, uGoenka wakhuluma ngoJesu Kristu, uMprofethi uMohammed, “njengabantu abagcwele uthando, ukuzwana, ukuthula.” Wathi kuphela umuntu ongenalo ngisho iconsi lolaka noma intukuthelo ongakwazi ukuzonda abantu abambulalayo (sikhuluma ngoKristu). Kodwa ukuthi izinkolo zomhlaba zilahlekelwe isiqalo esathathwa yilaba bantu abagcwele ukuthula nothando. Amasiko athathe indawo yengqikithi yalokho okwenzekayo, iminikelo konkulunkulu - zisebenzele wena.
Futhi kulokhu, umkhulu uGoenka waxoxa enye indaba.
Ubaba wensizwa eyodwa washona. Uyise wayengumuntu olungile, ofana nathi sonke: wake wathukuthela, waba muhle futhi enomusa. Wayengumuntu ojwayelekile. Futhi indodana yakhe yayimthanda. Weza kuBuddha wathi, “Bhuda othandekayo, ngifuna ngempela ubaba ukuthi aye ezulwini. Ungakwazi ukukuhlela lokhu?”
U-Buddha wamtshela ukuthi ngokunemba kwe-100%, wayengenakukuqinisekisa lokhu, futhi empeleni akekho, ngokuvamile, owayengakwazi. Iphikelele lensizwa. Wathi amanye ama-brahmin amthembisa ukwenza amasiko amaningana ayezohlanza umphefumulo kayise ezonweni futhi awenze ube lula ukuze kube lula ngaye ukungena ezulwini. Ukulungele ukukhokha okuningi kuBuddha, ngoba idumela lakhe lihle kakhulu.
Wathi uBhuda kuye, “Kulungile, hamba uye emakethe uyothenga amabhodwe amane. Faka amatshe phakathi kwawo, uthele amafutha kuwo amabili, uze. Le nsizwa yahamba ijabule kakhulu, yatshela wonke umuntu: “UBuddha uthembise ukuthi wayezosiza umphefumulo kababa uye ezulwini!” Wenza konke wabuya. Eduze nomfula, lapho uBuddha ayemlindile khona, kwase kuhlangene isixuku sabantu ababenesithakazelo kulokho okwenzekayo.
UBuddha wathi amabhodwe awabeke phansi komfula. Yakwenza lensizwa. UBuddha wathi, “Manje ziphule.” Yaphinde yacwila insizwa yawaphihliza amabhodwe. Amafutha antanta, amatshe ahlala izinsuku eziningi.
“Kunjalo nangemicabango nemizwa kayihlo,” kusho uBuddha. “Uma ezisebenzela, khona-ke umphefumulo wakhe uba lula njengebhotela futhi ukhuphuke uze ufike ezingeni elidingekayo, futhi uma engumuntu omubi, khona-ke amatshe anjalo akha ngaphakathi kuye. Futhi akekho ongaphendula amatshe abe ngamafutha, akekho onkulunkulu - ngaphandle kukayihlo.
- Ngakho-ke wena, ukuze uphendule amatshe abe ngamafutha, zisebenze, - umkhulu waqeda inkulumo yakhe.
Sasukuma sayolala.
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Namuhla ekuseni ngemva kokudla kwasekuseni, ngibone uhlu eduze nomnyango wegumbi lokudlela. Yayinamakholomu amathathu: igama, inombolo yegumbi, kanye “nokudingayo.” Ngama ngaqala ukufunda. Kuvele ukuthi amantombazane aseduze adinga iphepha lasendlini yangasese, umuthi wokuxubha nensipho. Ngibone kukuhle ukubhala igama lami, inombolo kanye “ngicela isibhamu esisodwa nenhlamvu eyodwa” ngimamatheke.
Ngithe ngifunda lolu hlu, ngazithela phezu kwegama likamakhelwane wami owahleka ngesikhathi sibuka le video noGoenka. Igama lakhe kwakunguJosephine. Ngokushesha ngambiza ngokuthi u-Leopard Josephine futhi ngaba nomuzwa wokuthi ekugcineni wayeka ukuba ngami bonke abanye besifazane abangamashumi amahlanu esifundweni (abaseYurophu abangaba ngu-20, amaRussia amabili, kuhlanganise nami, cishe ama-Nepalese angama-30). Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi, kuLeopard Josephine, ngiye ngaba nemfudumalo enhliziyweni yami.
Sekuhlwile, ngehora lekhefu phakathi kokuzindla, ngema ngezwa iphunga lezimbali ezinkulu ezimhlophe,
efana nogwayi (njengoba lezi zimbali zibizwa kanjalo eRussia), ubukhulu banye kuphela isibani setafula, njengoba uJosephine wangidlula ngesivinini esikhulu. Wahamba ngokushesha, njengoba kwakungavunyelwe ukugijima. Wahamba umbuthano ogcwele kakhulu - esuka ehholo lokuzindla eya endlini yokudlela, esuka endlini yokudlela eya esakhiweni, esuka esakhiweni ekhuphuka ngezitebhisi eya ehholo lokuzindla, futhi, futhi futhi. Abanye besifazane babehamba, umhlambi wonke wabo ubanda esitebhisini esiphezulu phambi kwezintaba zaseHimalaya. Owesifazane othile waseNepal wayezivocavoca enobuso obugcwele intukuthelo.
UJosephine wangidlula izikhathi eziyisithupha, wabe esehlala phansi ebhentshini wacwila umzimba wonke. Ufake ama-leggings akhe a-pink ezandleni zakhe, ezimboze nge-mop yezinwele ezibomvu.
Ukukhanya kokugcina kokushona kwelanga okuphinki okugqamile kwashintsha kwaba luhlaza okwesibhakabhaka kusihlwa, futhi i-gong yokuzindla yazwakala futhi.
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Ngemuva kwezinsuku ezintathu zokufunda ukubuka umoya wethu futhi ungacabangi, sekuyisikhathi sokuzama ukuzwa ukuthi kwenzekani ngemizimba yethu. Manje, ngesikhathi sokuzindla, sibona imizwa ephakamayo emzimbeni, idlulisa ukunaka kusuka ekhanda kuye ozwaneni nangemuva. Kulesi sigaba, okulandelayo kwacaca ngami: Anginankinga neze nemizwa, ngaqala ukuzwa yonke into ngosuku lokuqala. Kodwa ukuze ungazibandakanyi kule mizwa, kunezinkinga. Uma ngishisa, maye, ngiyashisa, ngishisa kakhulu, ngishisa kakhulu, ngishisa kakhulu. Uma ngizwa ukudlidliza nokushisa (futhi ngiyaqonda ukuthi le mizwa ihlotshaniswa nentukuthelo, njengoba kuwumuzwa wentukuthelo ovuka ngaphakathi kimi), khona-ke yeka indlela engizizwa ngayo! Konke ngokwami. Futhi ngemva kwehora lokugxuma okunjalo, ngizizwa ngikhathele ngokuphelele, ngingenakuphumula. Ukhuluma ngani Zen? Eee… Ngizizwa njengentaba-mlilo eqhuma njalo ngomzuzwana wokuba khona kwayo.
Yonke imizwelo iye yaba izikhathi ezingu-100 ezikhanyayo futhi ezinamandla, imizwa eminingi kanye nemizwa yomzimba kusukela esikhathini esidlule kuyavela. Ukwesaba, ukuzidabukela, intukuthelo. Bese bedlula bese kuvela ezintsha.
Izwi likamkhulu uGoenka lizwakala phezu kwezikhulumi, liphindaphinda into eyodwa: “Bheka ukuphefumula kwakho kanye nokuzwa kwakho. Yonke imizwa iyashintsha” (“Bheka nje ukuphefumula kwakho kanye nemizwa yakho. Yonke imizwa iyaguqulwa”).
O oh oh...
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Izincazelo zikaGoenka zaba nzima kakhulu. Manje ngezinye izikhathi ngiya ukuyolalela iziqondiso ngesiRashiya kanye nentombazane uTanya (sahlangana naye ngaphambi kwesifundo) kanye nomfana oyedwa.
Izifundo ziqhutshwa ohlangothini lwabesilisa, futhi ukuze ungene ehholo lethu, udinga ukuwela insimu yamadoda. Kwaba nzima kakhulu. Amadoda abe namandla ahluke ngokuphelele. Bakubuka, futhi nakuba bezindla njengawe, amehlo abo asanyakaza kanje:
- ama-hips,
- ubuso (bushelelezi)
– esifubeni, okhalweni.
Abakwenzi ngamabomu, kuyimvelo yabo nje. Abangifuni, abacabangi ngami, yonke into iyazenzakalela. Kodwa ukuze ngidlule endaweni yabo, ngizimboza ngengubo, njengeveli. Kuyamangaza ukuthi empilweni evamile cishe asiyizwa imibono yabanye abantu. Manje konke ukubuka kuzwakala njengokuthinta. Ngangicabanga ukuthi abesifazane abangamaSulumane abaphili kabi ngaphansi kweveyili.
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Ngiwashe izingubo nabesifazane baseNepal namhlanje ntambama. Kusukela kweyishumi nanye kuya kweyodwa sinesikhathi samahhala, okusho ukuthi ungakwazi ukugeza izingubo zakho bese ugeza. Bonke abesifazane bageza ngokuhlukile. Abesifazane baseYurophu bathatha imicengezi bese beya otshanini. Bafike baququde bacwilise izingubo zabo isikhathi eside. Ngokuvamile banempushana yokugeza izandla. Abesifazane baseJapane bawasha izingubo ngamagilavu asobala (ngokuvamile bayahlekisa, baxubha amazinyo kahlanu ngosuku, bagoqe izingubo zabo zibe yinqwaba, bahlale bengabokuqala ukugeza).
Nokho, lapho sonke sihlezi otshanini, abesifazane baseNepal babamba amagobolondo batshale isikhukhula sangempela eduze kwabo. Bahlikihla i-salwar kameez (ingubo yezwe, ibukeka njengebhulukwe elixegayo kanye nejazi elide) ngensipho ngqo kuthayela. Okokuqala ngezandla, bese kuba ngezinyawo. Bese begingqa izingubo ngezandla eziqinile zibe izinyanda zendwangu bese bezishaya phansi. Ama-Splash andiza azungeze. AbaseYurophu abangahleliwe bayahlakazeka. Bonke abanye besifazane abawashayo baseNepal abaphenduli nganoma iyiphi indlela kulokho okwenzekayo.
Futhi namuhla nginqume ukubeka impilo yami engozini futhi ngigeze nabo. Ngokuyisisekelo, ngiyasithanda isitayela sabo. Ngaqala nokuwasha izingubo phansi, ngizinyathela ngingafake zicathulo. Bonke abesifazane baseNepal baqala ukungibuka ngezikhathi ezithile. Okokuqala, kwase kuthi omunye wangithinta ngezingubo zakhe noma wathela amanzi ukuze inqwaba yamachaphazelo indize phezu kwami. Ingabe bekuyingozi? Lapho ngigoqa i-tourniquet futhi ngiyishaya kahle kusinki, cishe bangamukela. Okungenani akekho omunye owangibheka, futhi saqhubeka nokugeza ngesivinini esifanayo - ndawonye futhi silungile.
Ngemva kokugeza izinto ezimbalwa, owesifazane omdala kunabo bonke esifundweni weza kithi. Ngimqambe igama elithi Momo. Nakuba kugogo waseNepalese kwakuzohluka ngandlela-thile, ngase ngithola ukuthi kanjani - leli gama eliyinkimbinkimbi futhi elingelihle kakhulu. Kodwa igama elithi Momo lalimfanele kakhulu.
Wayethambile, ezacile futhi omile, eshukiwe. Wayenomluko omude ompunga, izici ezithambile nezandla eziqinile. Waqala ke ukugeza uMomo. Akwaziwa ukuthi kungani enqume ukwenza lokhu hhayi eshaweni, okwakuseduze kwakhe, kodwa khona lapha ngasesinkini phambi kwawo wonke umuntu.
Ubegqoke isari waqale wakhumula itop yakhe. Esasele ku-sari eyomile ngaphansi, wacwilisa indwangu endishini waqala ukuyicwilisa. Ngemilenze eqonde ngokuphelele, wagoba okhalweni futhi wakhuhla izingubo zakhe ngomdlandla. Isifuba sakhe esingenalutho sasibonakala. Lawo mabele ayefana namabele entombazane encane—enhle futhi emuhle. Isikhumba emhlane wakhe kwakungathi siqhekekile. Izindwani zehlombe eziqinile eziphuma phambili. Wayehamba kahle, ekhuthele, eqinile. Ngemva kokugeza ukhakhayi lwe-sari walugqoka, wehlisa izinwele zakhe wacwilisa kulo indishi enamanzi anensipho lapho i-sari yayisanda kufika khona. Kungani ewonga amanzi amaningi kangaka? Noma insipho? Izinwele zakhe zaziyisiliva emanzini anensipho, noma mhlawumbe elangeni. Ngesinye isikhathi, omunye wesifazane weza kuye, wathatha uhlobo oluthile lwendwangu, walucwilisa endishini eyayine-sari, waqala ukuphulula uMomo emhlane. Abesifazane abazange baphendukele komunye nomunye. Abazange baxhumane. Kodwa uMomo akazange amangale nakancane ukuthi wayekhuhlwa emhlane. Ngemva kokuhlikihla isikhumba emifantwini isikhathi esithile, lona wesifazane wabeka phansi indwangu futhi wahamba.
Wayemuhle kakhulu lo Momo. Ukukhanya kwelanga okunelanga, insipho, enezinwele ezinde ezisiliva nomzimba omncane, oqinile.
Ngaqalaza ngahlikihla into endishini ukuze ngibukise, ngagcina ngingasitholanga isikhathi sokuwasha iphenti lapho kukhala igolo lokuzindla.
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Ngavuka ebusuku ngokwesaba. Inhliziyo yami yayigaya izibozi okohlanya, kuzwakale kunkenteza ezindlebeni zami, isisu sishisa, ngimanzi te umjuluko. Ngangesaba ukuthi kwakukhona othile ekamelweni, ngezwa into engavamile ... ukuba khona komuntu ... ngangesaba ukufa. Lo mzuzu lapho konke sekuphelile ngami. Lokhu kuzokwenzeka kanjani emzimbeni wami? Ngizoyizwa inhliziyo yami ima? Noma mhlawumbe kukhona ongasuki lapha eduze kwami, angimboni nje, kodwa ukhona. Angavela noma yimuphi umzuzwana, futhi ngizobona uhlaka lwakhe ebumnyameni, amehlo akhe avuthayo, ngizwe ukuthinta kwakhe.
Ngangesaba kangangokuthi ngangingakwazi ukunyakaza, futhi ngakolunye uhlangothi, ngangifuna ukwenza okuthile, noma yini, ukuze nje ngiyiqede. Vusa intombazane evolontiya ebesihlala nayo ebhilidini uyitshele ukuthi ngehlelwa yini, noma uphumele ngaphandle uyothintitha le nkohliso.
Kwezinye izinsalela zokuzimisela, noma mhlawumbe kakade senginomkhuba wokubuka, ngaqala ukubuka ukuphefumula kwami. Angazi ukuthi kwaqhubeka isikhathi esingakanani konke, ngezwa ukwesaba okukhulu kuwo wonke umoya kanye nokukhipha umoya, kaninginingi. Ukwesaba ukuqonda ukuthi ngingedwa futhi akekho ongangivikela futhi angisindise okwamanje, ekufeni.
Ngabe sengilala. Ebusuku ngiphuphe ubuso bukasathane, bubomvu futhi bufana ncamashi nesifihla-buso sedemoni engisithenge esitolo sezivakashi eKathmandu. Okubomvu, okukhazimulayo. Amehlo kuphela aye serious angethembisa konke engikufunayo. Ngangingalifuni igolide, ubulili noma udumo, kodwa noma kunjalo kwakukhona okuthile okwakungigcina ngiqinile embuthanweni weSamsara. Bekuyi…
Okuthakazelisa kakhulu ukuthi ngikhohliwe. Angisakhumbuli ukuthi bekuyini. Kodwa ngiyakhumbula ukuthi ephusheni ngamangala kakhulu: ingabe yilokho kuphela, kungani ngilapha? Futhi amehlo kaSathane angiphendula: "Yebo."
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Namuhla usuku lokugcina lokuthula, usuku lweshumi. Lokhu kusho ukuthi konke, ukuphela kwerayisi engapheli, ukuphela kokuvuka ngo-4-30 futhi, ngokuqinisekile, ekugcineni ngizwa izwi lomuntu othandekayo. Ngizizwa nginesidingo esikhulu sokuzwa izwi lakhe, ukumgona futhi ngimtshele ukuthi ngiyamthanda ngenhliziyo yami yonke, ukuthi ngicabanga ukuthi uma ngigxila kulesi sifiso nje kancane manje, ngingakwazi ukuthumela ucingo. Kulesi simo, usuku lweshumi luyadlula. Ngezikhathi ezithile kuvela ukuzindla, kodwa hhayi ikakhulukazi.
Kusihlwa siphinde sihlangane nomkhulu. Ngalolu suku udabukile ngempela. Uthi kusasa sizokwazi ukukhuluma, nokuthi izinsuku eziyishumi akusona isikhathi esanele sokubona i-dharma. Kodwa yini athemba ukuthi sifunde ukuzindla okungenani kancane lapha. Ukuthi uma, lapho sifika ekhaya, sithukuthele hhayi imizuzu eyishumi, kodwa okungenani emihlanu, khona-ke lokhu sekuvele kuyimpumelelo enkulu.
Umkhulu futhi useluleka ukuba siphindaphinde ukuzindla kanye ngonyaka, futhi sizindle kabili ngosuku, futhi useluleka ukuba singabi njengomunye wabantu esibajwayele baseVaranasi. Futhi usixoxela indaba ngabangane bakhe.
Ngolunye usuku, abantu ababebajwayele okhokho bakaGoenka baseVaranasi banquma ukuzijabulisa futhi baqasha umgwedli ukuba abagibele eduze kweGanges ubusuku bonke. Kwafika ubusuku, bangena esikebheni futhi bathi kumgwedli - gwedla. Waqala ukugwedla, kodwa ngemva kwemizuzu eyishumi wathi: “Nginomuzwa wokuthi umsinga uyasithwala, ngingawabeka phansi izigwedlo?” Abangane bakaGoenka bamvumela umgwedli ukuba enze kanjalo, bamkholelwa kalula. Ekuseni, lapho ilanga liphuma, babona ukuthi babengakasuki ogwini. Babethukuthele futhi bedanile.
“Ngakho-ke wena,” kuphetha uGoenka, “kokubili ungumgwedli kanye noqasha umgwedli.” Ningazikhohlisi ohambweni lwe-dharma. Sebenza!
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Namuhla ubusuku bokugcina bokuhlala kwethu lapha. Bonke abazindla baya kuphi. Ngadlula ngasehholo lokuzindla futhi ngabuka ebusweni babesifazane baseNepal. Yeka ukuthi kuthakazelisa kanjani, ngacabanga, ukuthi uhlobo oluthile lwenkulumo lubonakala lubanda ebusweni obubodwa noma obunye.
Nakuba ubuso bunganyakazi, abesifazane ngokusobala “kubo”, kodwa ungazama ukuqagela uhlamvu lwabo nendlela abaxhumana ngayo nabantu ababazungezile. Lona onezindandatho ezintathu eminweni yakhe, isilevu sakhe siphakeme ngaso sonke isikhathi, nezindebe zakhe zicindezelwe ngokungabazayo. Kubonakala sengathi uma evula umlomo wakhe, into yokuqala azoyisho ukuthi: “Uyazi, omakhelwane bethu bayiziphukuphuku.
Noma lena. Kubukeka sengathi akulutho, kusobala ukuthi akubi. Ngakho-ke, ukuvuvukala futhi uhlobo lwesiphukuphuku, kancane. Kodwa-ke uyabuka, ubheka ukuthi uhlala kanjani ezithathela irayisi ezimbalwa esidlweni sakusihlwa, noma ukuthi uphuthuma kanjani ukuyobeka ilanga kuqala, noma ukuthi ubheka kanjani abanye besifazane, ikakhulukazi abeLungu. Futhi kulula kakhulu ukumcabanga ephambi kwe-TV yaseNepal ethi, “Mukund, omakhelwane bethu bebenama-TV amabili, manje sebene-TV yesithathu. Ukube besinayo enye i-TV.” Futhi ekhathele futhi, mhlawumbe, omile ngenxa yempilo enjalo, uMkund uyamphendula: “Yebo, sithandwa, yebo, sizothenga enye isethi ye-TV.” Futhi yena, eshaya izindebe zakhe kancane njengethole, njengokungathi uhlafuna utshani, ubuka i-TV ngokudangala futhi kuyahlekisa kuye lapho emenza ahleke, adabuke lapho efuna ukumkhathaza ... Noma lapha ...
Kodwa-ke imicabango yami yaphazanyiswa uMomo. Ngabona ukuthi uyedlula futhi wahamba ngokuzethemba ngokwanele eqonde ocingweni. Iqiniso liwukuthi ikamu lethu lonke lokuzindla lizungezwe uthango oluncane. Abesifazane babiyelwe emadodeni, futhi sonke singaphandle nezindlu zothisha. Kuwo wonke uthango ungabona okubhalwe ukuthi: “Ngicela ningaweqi lo mngcele. Jabula!" Futhi nansi enye yalezi zici ezihlukanisa abacabangi ethempelini laseVipassana.
Leli futhi ihholo lokuzindla, elihle kuphela, elisikwe ngegolide futhi elifana nekhoni elinwetshiwe phezulu. NoMomo waya kulolu cingo. Wasondela obhodini, waqalaza, futhi—inqobo nje uma kungekho muntu obhekayo—wakhipha indandatho emnyango wengobo futhi washesha ukungena kuwo. Wagijima amagxathu ambalwa futhi watshekisa ikhanda lakhe ngokuhlekisa, wayebonakala ebheke ethempelini. Khona-ke, ebheka emuva futhi futhi ngabona ukuthi akekho ombonayo (ngenza sengathi ngibheka phansi), uMomo obuthakathaka futhi omile wagijima wakhuphuka ezinye izinyathelo ezingu-20 futhi waqala ukugqolozela obala kuleli thempeli. Wathatha amagxathu ambalwa eya kwesokunxele, wase eya kwesokudla. Ahlanganise izandla. Aphendule ikhanda.
Ngabe sengibona umzanyana ohefuzelayo wabesifazane baseNepal. Abantu baseYurophu nabesifazane baseNepal babe namavolontiya ahlukene, futhi nakuba kungaba yiqiniso nakakhulu ukuthi "ivolontiya", lona wesifazane wayebukeka njengomzanyana onomusa ovela kwesinye sezibhedlela zaseRussia. Wagijimela kuMomo buthule futhi wabonisa ngezandla zakhe: “Buyela emuva.” UMomo waphenduka kodwa wenza sengathi akamboni. Kuthe uma umzanyana esondela kuye, uMomo waqala ukucindezela izandla zakhe enhliziyweni yakhe futhi ekhombisa ngakho konke ukuthi ubengaziboni izimpawu futhi akazi ukuthi akunakwenzeka ukungena lapha. Wanikina ikhanda ebukeka enecala elibi.
Yini esebusweni bakhe? Ngaqhubeka ngicabanga. Okuthile okufana nalokhu ... Angeke kwenzeke ukuthi angaba nesithakazelo esijulile emalini. Mhlawumbe… Yebo, kunjalo. Kulula kakhulu. Ilukuluku. UMomo onezinwele ezisiliva wayenelukuluku lokufuna ukwazi, engenakwenzeka! Ngisho nothango alukwazanga ukumvimba.
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Namuhla sikhulumile. Amantombazane aseYurophu axoxa ngendlela sonke esasizizwa ngayo. Babenamahloni ukuthi sonke sabhodla, saqhuma futhi saqhuma. UGabrielle, owesifazane ongumFulentshi, wathi wayengezwa lutho futhi wayezumeka ngaso sonke isikhathi. “Yini, kukhona okuzwile?” ezibuza.
Kwatholakala ukuthi uJosephine kwakunguJoselina—ngangilifunda kabi igama lakhe. Ubungane bethu obuntekenteke bawohloka emgodleni wolimi. Kwavela ukuthi ungum-Irishi ngendlela enzima kakhulu yokubona kwami kanye nesivinini sokukhuluma, ngakho sangana izikhathi eziningana, kwaba njalo. Abaningi bathi lokhu kuzindla kuyingxenye yohambo olukhudlwana kubo. Nabo babekweminye i-ashram. UmMelika, owafika okwesibili ngokukhethekile eVipassana, uthe yebo, ngempela kunomphumela omuhle empilweni yakhe. Waqala ukudweba ngemva kokuzindla kokuqala.
Intombazane yaseRussia uTanya yaphenduka i-freediver. Wayesebenza ehhovisi, kodwa wabe eseqala ukutshuza ngaphandle kwegiya le-scuba ekujuleni, futhi wagcwala amanzi kangangokuthi manje usetshuza ngamamitha angu-50 futhi wayeseMqhudelwaneni Womhlaba. Lapho ekhuluma okuthile, wathi: “Ngiyakuthanda, ngizothenga ithilamu.” Le nkulumo yangithakasela, futhi ngamthanda ngendlela yesiRashiya ngaleso sikhathi.
Abesifazane baseJapane babengasazi nhlobo isiNgisi, futhi kwakunzima ukulondoloza inkhulumomphendvulwano nabo.
Sonke sasivumelene ngento eyodwa kuphela – silapha ukuze ngandlela thize ukuze sibhekane nemizwa yethu. Okwasiguqula, kwasithonya, sasinamandla kakhulu, siyinqaba. Futhi sonke sasifuna ukujabula. Futhi sifuna manje. Futhi, kubonakala sengathi, saqala ukuthola kancane ... Kubonakala sengathi.
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Ngaphambi nje kokuba ngihambe, ngaya lapho sasivame ukuphuza khona amanzi. Abesifazane baseNepal babemi lapho. Ngemva kokuba sesiqalile ukukhuluma, ngokushesha baziqhelelanisa nezintokazi ezikhuluma isiNgisi futhi ukuxhumana kwakulinganiselwe kuphela ukumamatheka nokuphoxeka “uxolo”.
Babehlala ndawonye ngaso sonke isikhathi, abantu abathathu noma abane eduze, futhi kwakungelula kangako ukukhuluma nabo. Futhi uma ngikhuluma iqiniso, bengifuna ngempela ukubabuza imibuzo embalwa, ikakhulukazi njengoba isiNepalese eKathmandu siphatha izivakashi njengezivakashi kuphela. Uhulumeni waseNepal ngokusobala ukhuthaza isimo sengqondo esinjalo, noma mhlawumbe yonke into imbi ngomnotho … angazi.
Kodwa ukuxhumana namaNepalese, ngisho nokuvela ngokuzenzakalelayo, kuncishisiwe ekusebenzelaneni kokuthenga nokuthengisa. Futhi lokhu, yiqiniso, okokuqala, kuyisicefe, futhi okwesibili, futhi kuyisicefe. Sekukonke, bekuyithuba elihle. Futhi ngakho ngenyuka ukuzophuza amanzi, ngaqalaza. Kwakukhona abesifazane abathathu eduze. Omunye wesifazane osemusha wenza izivivinyo zokuzelula enolaka ebusweni bakhe, omunye oneminyaka ephakathi nendawo enesimo esimnandi, kanti owesithathu akukho. Angisamkhumbuli nje manje.
Ngaphendukela kowesifazane osekhulile. “Uxolo, nkosikazi,” ngathi, “angifuni ukukuphazamisa, kodwa ngifisa kakhulu ukwazi okuthile ngabesifazane baseNepal nokuthi wazizwa kanjani lapho uzindla.”
“Kunjalo,” kusho yena.
Futhi nakhu angitshela khona:
“Ubona inqwaba yabesifazane asebekhulile noma abesifazane abaneminyaka ephakathi nendawo eVipassana, futhi lokhu akwenzeki ngengozi. Lapha eKathmandu, uMnu. Goenka udumile, umphakathi wangakubo awuthathwa njengehlelo. Kwesinye isikhathi umuntu ubuya e-vipassana futhi sibona ukuthi lowo muntu ushintshe kanjani. Uba nomusa kwabanye futhi ezolile. Ngakho-ke le nqubo yathola ukuthandwa eNepal. Okuxakayo ukuthi abantu abasha abanaso isithakazelo kuso kunabantu abaneminyaka ephakathi kanye nasebekhulile. Indodana yami ithi konke lokhu kungamampunge futhi udinga ukuya kudokotela wezengqondo uma kukhona okungahambi kahle. Indodana yami yenza ibhizinisi eMelika futhi siwumndeni ocebile. Nami sengineminyaka eyishumi ngihlala eMelika futhi ngibuya lapha ngezikhathi ezithile ngizobona izihlobo zami. Isizukulwane esisha eNepal sisendleleni engalungile yentuthuko. Bathanda kakhulu imali. Kubo kubonakala sengathi uma unemoto nendlu enhle, lokhu kakade kuyinjabulo. Mhlawumbe lokhu kungenxa yobumpofu obusabekayo obusizungezile. Ngenxa yokuthi sengineminyaka eyishumi ngihlala eMelika, ngiyakwazi ukuqhathanisa nokuhlaziya. Futhi yilokho engikubonayo. AbaseNtshonalanga beza kithi befuna ingokomoya, kuyilapho abaseNepal beya eNtshonalanga ngoba befuna injabulo yezinto ezibonakalayo. Ukube bekusemandleni ami, konke ebengizokwenzela indodana yami bekuyoba ukumyisa eVipassana. Kodwa cha, uthi akanaso isikhathi, umsebenzi omningi.
Lo mkhuba kithi uhlanganiswa kalula nobuHindu. Ama-brahmins ethu awasho lutho ngalokhu. Uma uthanda, zijwayeze impilo yakho, vele ube nomusa futhi ugcine wonke amaholide.
I-Vipassana ingisiza kakhulu, ngiyivakashela okwesithathu. Ngaya kuma-training eMelika, kodwa akufani, akukushintshi ngokujulile, akukuchazi ukuthi kwenzekani ngokujulile.
Cha, akunzima ngabesifazane abadala ukuzindla. Sekungamakhulu eminyaka sihlezi endaweni yelotus. Lapho sidla, sithunga noma senza okunye. Ngakho-ke, ogogo bethu bahlala kalula kulesi sikhundla ihora, okungeke kushiwo ngawe, abantu bakwamanye amazwe. Siyabona ukuthi lokhu kunzima kini, futhi kithi kuyaxaka.”
Owesifazane waseNepal wabhala i-e-mail yami, wathi uzongifaka ku-facebook.
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Ngemva kokuphela kwesifundo, sanikezwa lokho esasikudlule emnyango. Amafoni, amakhamera, amakhamera. Abaningi babuyela esikhungweni futhi baqala ukuthatha izithombe zeqembu noma ukudubula okuthile. Ngibambe i-smartphone esandleni sami futhi ngicabanga. Bengifuna ngempela ukugcina isihlahla samagilebhisi esinezithelo eziphuzi ngokumelene nesizinda sesibhakabhaka esiluhlaza okwesibhakabhaka. Buyisa noma cha? Kimina kwabonakala sengathi uma ngenza lokhu - ngikhomba ikhamera ocingweni kulesi sihlahla bese uchofoza kuyo, lapho-ke izokwehlisa inani elithile. Lokhu kuyaxaka kakhulu ngoba empilweni ejwayelekile ngithanda ukuthatha izithombe futhi ngivame ukukwenza. Abantu abanamakhamera ochwepheshe badlula eduze kwami, bashintshana ngemibono futhi bachofoza yonke into.
Manje sekunezinyanga ezimbalwa ekupheleni kokuzindla, kodwa lapho ngifuna, ngivala amehlo ami, futhi phambi kwawo kukhona isihlahla somvini esinezithelo zomvini eziphuzi eziphuzi ngokumelene nesibhakabhaka esiluhlaza okwesibhakabhaka, noma izigaxa ezimpunga ze-grapefruit. ezintabeni zase-Himalaya ngobusuku obunomoya obomvana obubomvu. Ngikhumbula imifantu yezitebhisi ezisiholela ehholo lokuzindla, ngikhumbula ukuthula nokuzola kwehholo ngaphakathi. Ngesizathu esithile, konke lokhu kwaba okubalulekile kimi futhi ngiyakukhumbula kanye neziqephu ezivela ebuntwaneni ngezinye izikhathi zikhunjulwa - ngomuzwa wohlobo oluthile lwenjabulo yangaphakathi ngaphakathi, umoya nokukhanya. Mhlawumbe ngolunye usuku ngiyodweba isihlahla somvini ngekhanda futhi ngisilengise endlini yami. Endaweni ethile lapho imisebe yelanga iwela khona kakhulu.
Umbhalo: Anna Shmeleva.