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Ukulandelela ukukhulelwa: kungani ngikhethe ukwesekwa komhlaba wonke
“Ngabeletha izingane zami zokuqala ezimbili eFinland. Lapho, babonisa inhlonipho enkulu ekwamukeleni ingane. Akukho ukuboshelwa kwentambo ngaphambi kokuthi iyeke ukushaya, noma i-systematic gastric aspiration. Lapho ngibuyela eFrance, ngangikhulelwe futhi ngokushesha ngafuna isibhedlela sokubeletha lapho ngangingabelethela khona ngaphandle kokwelashwa. Ngabeletha esibhedlela saseGivors. Ingane yami yazalwa ngaphambi kwesikhathi, yaba nezinkinga ezinkulu futhi sacishe salahlekelwa yiyo. Konke lokhu ukukutshela ukuthi lapho ngikhulelwa okwesine, ngangikhathazeke kakhulu. Ngihlangane nombelethisi wami ngomsebenzi wami. Ekuqaleni, ukusekela okuphelele akuzange kungilinge kakhulu. Ngingumuntu onesizotha. Umqondo wokulandelwa ngumuntu oyedwa ngesikhathi sokukhulelwa wangethusa futhi ngesaba nokuthi umyeni wami uzozithola ekhishwa inyumbazane kulaba ababili. Kodwa ekugcineni ukuhamba kuhambe kahle kuCathy ngaze ngafuna ukuzama naye.
"Uhlangothi lukamama wakhe lungiqinisile"
Ukulandelela ukukhulelwa kwahamba kahle kakhulu. Njalo ngenyanga, ngangiya ehhovisi lakhe ngiyobonisana naye. Ngamafuphi, ukulandela kwakudala. Kodwa ngokuyisisekelo, yonke into yayihluke kakhulu. Ngangidinga ukuqinisekiswa futhi umbelethisi wami wangisiza ngempela ukuba nginqobe ukukhathazeka kwami. Ngiyabonga kuye, ngakwazi ukusho ukuthi izifiso zami zaziyini, ngifuna ukuthi ingane yami ize kanjani emhlabeni. Umyeni wami, owayengaphumelelanga ukusho lokho okwakumkhathaza ngemva kokubeletha kwami kokugcina, wakwazi ukuxoxa naye, ukuze aziveze ngokwakhe. Ubehlezi ekhona, bengingamshayela noma yinini uma nginenkinga. Ngiyavuma ukuthi nakuba kwakungokwesine ukukhulelwa kwami, ngangidinga ukubeletha. UCathy wangibuyisela ukuzethemba. Njengoba isikhathi sisondela, ngathola imisebenzi eminingi yamanga. Kubonakala sengathi lokhu kuvamile ngesikhathi sokukhulelwa kwesine. Ngosuku engalahlekelwa ngalo amanzi, ngafonela umbelethisi wami ngo-4 ekuseni
“Ngokokuqala ngqa, ubaba uthole indawo yakhe ngesikhathi ebeletha”
Lapho ngifika ewodini lababelethayo, wayesekhona kakade, ehlale enakisisa futhi enakekela. Ngajabula kakhulu ngokumthola. Bengingeke ngizibone ngibeletha omunye umzanyana. UCathy wahlala nathi ngesikhathi sokubeletha futhi uNkulunkulu uyazi ukuthi kwathatha isikhathi eside. Akazange aziphoqelele, wayesiqondisa ngokuhlakanipha. Izikhathi eziningana, wanginika i-acupuncture ukuze ngikhululeke. Okokuqala nje, umyeni wami useyitholile indawo yakhe. Ngamuzwa ukuthi usebhamuleni nami impela, siyayemukela lengane sobathathu. Lapho indodana yami izalwa, ayizange ikhale ngokushesha, yayizolile futhi izolile, ngamangala. Saba nomuzwa wokuthi naye wayewuzwile umoya opholile owawubusa egunjini lokubelethela. Umbelethisi wami wathinteka. Lapho egona indodana yami, ngabona ukuthi iqotho, ukuthi yayimthinte ngempela lokhu kuzalwa. Khona-ke, uCathy wahlala ekhona ngemva kokubeletha. Wayengivakashela kanye ngesonto ngenyanga yokuqala. Namuhla sisathintana. Angisoze ngakukhohlwa lokhu kuzalwa. Kimina, ukusekelwa kukonke kube yinto enhle ngempela. “