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Ekuseni kungukuqala kosuku. Impilo ayikaqali, kodwa yonke into isilindele ukuphila ... Sekuyasa!

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Ukuze ubuyisele ubuhlakani bakho, kufanele uqale ukuthole. Ngiphakamisa ukwenza lokhu ngosizo lomsebenzi obonakala ungenamsebenzi ngokuphelele engiwubiza ngamakhasi asekuseni. Uzobhekisela kule seshini nsuku zonke phakathi nesifundo futhi ngethemba ukuthi ngemva kwalokho. Sengineminyaka eyishumi ngikwenza lokhu. Abanye babafundi bami, abanolwazi lwabo olungekho ngaphansi kakhulu kunolwami, bangathanda ukuyeka ukuphefumula kunokufunda amakhasi asekuseni.

U-Ginny, umdidiyeli wesikrini nomdidiyeli, ubancoma ngokukhuthaza imibhalo yakhe yakamuva kanye nokugcina izinhlelo zakhe ze-TV zihlanzekile futhi zihlanzekile. Uthi: “Ngize ngibaphathe nangenkolelo-ze manje. Kwesinye isikhathi kufanele uvuke ngehora lesihlanu ekuseni ukuze uzibhale ngaphambi kokuba uye emsebenzini.

Ayini amakhasi asekuseni? Ngokwesimo esijwayelekile, zingachazwa njengokulandelana kokuqaphela okubhalwe emakhasini amathathu ombhalo obhalwe ngesandla: “O, sekusile futhi ... Akukho lutho ongabhala ngakho. Kungaba kuhle ukuwasha amakhethini. Ngikhiphe izingubo ewasha izolo? La-la-la…” Ngaphansi komhlaba, zingabizwa ngokuthi «indle yobuchopho», ngoba lokhu kuyinjongo yazo eqondile.

Amakhasi asekuseni awakwazi ukuba amaphutha noma amabi. Lezi zincwadi zansuku zonke zasekuseni akufanele zihlanganise lutho nobuciko. Ngisho nangokubhala umbhalo onekhono. Ngigcizelela lokhu kwabangewona ababhali abasebenzisa incwadi yami. "Ukubhala" okunjalo kumane nje kuyindlela, ithuluzi. Akukho okunye okudingekayo kuwe - mane uhambise isandla sakho phezu kwephepha bese ubhala phansi konke okufikayo engqondweni. Futhi ungesabi ukusho into ewubuwula kakhulu, edabukisayo, engenangqondo, noma eyinqaba—noma yini izosebenza.

Amakhasi asekuseni akudingeki ahlakaniphe nhlobo, nakuba ngezinye izikhathi enza kanjalo. Kodwa, cishe, lokhu ngeke kwenzeke, okungekho muntu ozokwazi - ngaphandle kwakho. Akekho omunye ovunyelwe ukuzifunda, nawe akufanele, okungenani ezinyangeni ezimbili zokuqala. Vele ubhale amakhasi amathathu bese ubeka amaphepha emvilophini. Noma vula ikhasi encwadini yokubhalela futhi ungabheki ezandulele. Vele ubhale amakhasi amathathu… Namanye amathathu ngakusasa ekuseni.

… September 30, 1991 Mina noDominique saya emfuleni ngempelasonto siyobamba izimbungulu ngomsebenzi wakhe wesayensi yezinto eziphilayo. Baqoqa amacimbi nezimvemvane. Ngazenzela minathi ebomvu, kwavela kahle, ojekamanzi kuphela abashesha kangangokuthi bacishe basilethela izinyembezi. Futhi sabona isicabucabu se-tarantula, esasihamba ngokuthula emgwaqeni wephawundi eduze kwendlu yethu, kodwa asizange silokothe ​​ukusibamba ...

Ngezinye izikhathi amakhasi asekuseni aqukethe izincazelo ezimibalabala, kodwa ngokuvamile agcwele ukungabi nandaba, njengokungathi ahlanganiswe ndawonye ngenxa yokuzidabukela, ukuphindaphinda, ubukhazikhazi, ubungane, ukudelela noma umbhedo oyisidina, noma ngisho nobuwula obusobala. Kuhle lokho!

… October 2, 1991 Lapho ngiphaphama, ngangiphethwe yikhanda, ngathatha i-aspirin, futhi manje ngizizwa ngingcono, nakuba ngisazizwa ngigodola. Ngicabanga ukuthi ngiwutholile umkhuhlane. Cishe zonke izinto sezivele zingapakishiwe, futhi i-teapot kaLaura, engaphuthelwa ngokusangana, ayizange itholakale. Isono…

Yonke lembudane eniyibhala ekuseni, ehlanganisa ukucasuka nokudangala, yikho okuvimba ukuthi ningadali. Ukukhathazeka ngomsebenzi, ilondolo engcolile, ukubobotheka emotweni, ukubukeka okungajwayelekile okuvela kothandekayo — konke lokhu kuzungeza ndawana thize kuzinga lokungazi lutho futhi konakalisa ukuma kwenhliziyo usuku lonke. Kukhiphe konke ephepheni.

Amakhasi asekuseni ayindlela eyinhloko yokuvuselela ubuciko. Njengawo wonke amaciko ahlangabezana nesikhathi sokuma kobuciko, sivame ukuzigxeka ngokungenaluzwela. Ngisho noma umhlaba wonke ucabanga ukuthi sicebe kakhulu ngokudala, sisakholelwa ukuthi asidali ngokwanele, futhi lokhu akusizi. Siba yisisulu somuntu wethu wangaphakathi, olwela ukuphelela kukho konke, umgxeki wethu waphakade, i-Censor, ozinze ekhanda (ngokuqondile, endaweni yesokunxele) futhi uyakhononda, ngokuphindaphindiwe ekhulula amazwi angama-snide. lokho kubukeka njengeqiniso. Le Censor ilokhu isitshela izinto ezimangalisayo: “Hm, yilokhu esikubiza ngokuthi umbhalo? Kuyini lokhu, ihlaya? Yebo, awukwazi ngisho nokubeka ukhefana lapho udinga khona. Uma ungakaze wenze into efana nalena ngaphambilini, awukwazi ukuthemba ukuthi izoke iphumelele. Kuwe lapha iphutha lephutha kanye nedrayivu yephutha. Yini ekwenza ucabange ukuthi unethalente elincane? Futhi konke kanjalo.

Zau.e.te ngokwakho emakhaleni akho: umbono ongemuhle we-Censor yakho awulona iqiniso. Ngeke ukwazi ukuyifunda ngokushesha, kodwa njengoba uphuma embhedeni ekuseni futhi ngokushesha uhlale phansi phambi kwekhasi elingenalutho, ufunda ukukugwema. Impela ngoba akunakwenzeka ukubhala amakhasi asekuseni okungalungile, unelungelo lokungalaleli nhlobo le Censor edabukisayo. Akaqumbe afunge ngokuthanda kwakhe. (Futhi akayeki ukukhuluma.) Qhubeka uhambisa isandla sakho ekhasini. Uma ufuna, ungaqopha ngisho ingxoxo yakhe. Naka ukuthi uhlose igazi kangakanani endaweni esengozini enkulu yokuqamba kwakho. Futhi ungalenzi iphutha: i-Censor isezithendeni zakho, futhi uyisitha esinobuqili kakhulu. Lapho uhlakanipha, uhlakanipha. Ubhale umdlalo omuhle? I-censor izokwazisa ngokuqinisekile ukuthi akukho okunye ongathemba ngakho. Ingabe udwebe umdwebo wakho wokuqala? "Hhayi uPicasso," uzosho.

Cabanga ngale Censor njengeNyoka ene-caricature eshushuluza e-Edene yakho yokudala futhi ihlebeza izinto ezimbi ukuze zikudide. Uma iNyoka ingahambisani nawe, khetha omunye umuntu, njengoshaka ovela ku-movie ethi Jaws, bese uwela ngaphandle. Lengisa lesi sithombe lapho ujwayele ukubhala khona, noma usifake encwajaneni. Ngokuveza i-Censor njengesikhohlakali sikapopayi esincane esinonya futhi ngaleyo ndlela umbeke endaweni yakhe, kancane kancane umphuca amandla phezu kwakho nobuchule bakho bokusungula.

Bangaphezu koyedwa wabafundi bami abavale ucingo - njengesithombe sikaCensor - isithombe esingajabulisi somzali wakhe - lowo amkweleta ukubonakala komgxeki we-caustic engqondweni yakhe. Ngakho-ke, umsebenzi awukona ukubona ukuhlaselwa komlingiswa ononya njengezwi lokucabanga futhi ufunde ukubona kuye kuphela ikhampasi ephukile engakuholela ekugcineni kokufa kokudala.

Amakhasi asekuseni awaxoxiswana. Ungalokothi weqe noma usike inani lamakhasi asekuseni. Isimo sakho sengqondo asinandaba. Izinto ezimbi ozizwa ku-Censor nazo azibalulekile. Kunombono oyiphutha wokuthi udinga ukuba sesimweni esithile ukuze ubhale. Lokhu akulona iqiniso. Ngokuvamile imisebenzi yobuciko engcono kakhulu izalwa ngokunembile ngalezo zinsuku lapho ucabanga ukuthi konke okwenzayo kuwumbhedo ophelele. Amakhasi asekuseni azokuvimba ukuthi ungazahluleli futhi akuvumela ukuthi ubhale nje. Kuthiwani-ke uma ukhathele, ucasukile, ucindezelekile futhi ungakwazi ukugxilisa ingqondo? Umculi wakho wangaphakathi uyingane edinga ukondliwa. Amakhasi asekuseni awukudla kwakhe, ngakho-ke hamba.

Amakhasi amathathu anoma yini afika ekhanda lakho - yilokho kuphela okudingeka kuwe. Uma kungekho lutho oluvelayo, bhala phansi: "Akukho okufika engqondweni." Qhubeka wenze lokhu uze uwaqede wonke amakhasi amathathu. Yenza noma yini oyifunayo uze ubaqede bobathathu.

Lapho abantu bengibuza, "Kungani ubhala la makhasi ekuseni?" - Ngiyayihleka: "Ukungena komunye umhlaba." Kodwa kuwo wonke amahlaya kukhona ingxenye encane yehlaya. Amakhasi ekuseni asiyisa ngempela «kolunye uhlangothi» - ukwesaba, ukungabi nathemba, ukushintshashintsha kwemizwelo. Futhi okubaluleke kakhulu, basiyisa endaweni lapho i-Censor ingasakwazi ukusifinyelela. Lapho kanye lapho inkulumo yakhe ingasazwakala khona, sithola ukuba sodwa buthule futhi singalalela lelo zwi elingazwakali kahle elingeloMdali wethu nathi ngokwethu.

Kuyafaneleka ukubalula ukucabanga okunengqondo nokungokomfanekiso. Ukucabanga okunengqondo ukukhetha kweNtshonalanga Yenkabazwe Yomhlaba. Isebenza ngemiqondo, ngokucacile nangokungaguquguquki. Ihhashi ohlelweni olunjalo olunengqondo liyinhlanganisela ethile yezingxenye zezilwane. Ihlathi lasekwindla libonakala njengeqoqo lemibala: obomvu, osawolintshi, ophuzi, oluhlaza okotshani, ogolide.

Ukucabanga okucabangayo ngumsunguli wethu, ingane yethu, uprofesa wethu ongenangqondo. Cishe uzobabaza: “Hawu! Kuhle lokho!». Uqhathanisa okungenakuqhathaniswa ngokuphelele (isikebhe silingana negagasi kanye ne-tramp). Uthanda ukufanisa imoto egijima ngesivinini esikhulu nesilwane sasendle: «Impisi empunga yandiza yaphuma egcekeni ngokukhala.

Ukucabanga okungokomfanekiso kusithatha sonke isithombe. Iyakwamukela amaphethini kanye nemithunzi. Libuka ihlathi lasekwindla, liyababaza: “Hawu! Isixha samaqabunga! Yeka ubuhle! Gilding - acwebezelayo - njengesikhumba somhlaba - royal - carpet! Igcwele izinhlangano futhi ayivinjwa. Ixhuma izithombe ngendlela entsha ukuze idlulisele incazelo yezenzakalo, njengoba kwenza abantu baseScandinavia basendulo, bebiza isikebhe ngokuthi "ihhashi lasolwandle". I-Skywalker, i-Skywalker ku-Star Wars, iyisithombe esihle sokucabanga okucabangayo.

Kungani kukhulunywa ngokucabanga okunengqondo nokucabanga okungokomfanekiso? Futhi ngaphandle kwalokho, amakhasi asekuseni afundisa ukucabanga okunengqondo ukuhlehla futhi anikeze ithuba lokudlala okungokomfanekiso.

Ungase ukuthole kuzuzisa ukucabanga ngalo msebenzi njengokuzindla. Yiqiniso, lezi yizinto ezahlukene. Futhi, ungase ungakujwayele nhlobo ukuzindla. Amakhasi azobonakala kumuntu okude nengokomoya kanye nokuthula - kunalokho, banokuningi okuncane nokubi emizweni yabo. Nokho zimelela uhlobo lokuzindla olujulisa ukuziqonda kwethu futhi lusize ekuguquleni izimpilo.

Futhi enye into: amakhasi ekuseni afaneleka kubadwebi, abadwebi, izimbongi, abadlali, abameli kanye nomama bezindlu. Kuwo wonke umuntu ofuna ukuzama isandla sakhe ekudaleni. Ungacabangi ukuthi lokhu okwababhali kuphela. Abameli asebeqalile ukusebenzisa le ndlela bayafunga ukuthi sebephumelele kakhulu ezinkantolo. Abadansi bathi manje sekulula ngabo ukugcina ibhalansi - hhayi ngokwengqondo kuphela. Ngendlela, abalobi abangakwazi ukuqeda isifiso esidabukisayo sokubhala amakhasi asekuseni, esikhundleni sokumane bahambise isandla sabo phezu kwephepha, abakuthola kunzima kakhulu ukuzwa inzuzo yabo. Kunalokho, bayoba nomuzwa wokuthi eminye imibhalo yabo ikhululeka kakhulu, ibanzi ngobubanzi futhi kulula ukuyibhala. Ngamafuphi, noma yini oyenzayo noma ofuna ukuyenza, i-Morning Pages ingeyakho.

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