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Ukubeletha ngaphansi kuka-X: ubufakazi bombelethisi
U-Héloïse X. uvele, phakathi nobusuku basebusika, embundwini womnyango wegumbi lezimo eziphuthumayo. Wayebonakala egodola futhi ehlushwa ukufinyela okwakungamniki isikhathi sokuphefumula. Wayenesikhumba esinodiaphanic namehlo akhathazekile. Wayemncane, engakahlanganisi ishumi nesishiyagalombili, mhlawumbe amashumi amabili, okungenani. Kwakungu "Heloise", ngoba kwakuyigama lokuqala umngane wesikole esiphakeme ayenalo elifana naye. Kwakungu "X." ngoba uHeloise wayesenqume ukuzala ngasese. Ngangingazi ukuthi ungubani.
Umhlangano ulula. Ngokushesha kakhulu, amazwi ...
- Nginokufinyela, yingane yami yokuqala lena futhi ngeshwa akukho okunye engingakwenza ngaphandle kokuthi ngibelethe ngaphansi kuka-X. Ngesaba, ngesaba kakhulu, ngakho konke. Akaziwa umama wethu, akalandelwanga ukukhulelwa kwakhe. Wazama, kodwa akekho, njengomuntu okhululekile, owayefuna ukumlalela. Akazange abe nalo ithuba lokukhala eminyango efanele. Akukho ukunakekelwa okwamukelwa ngaphandle kobunikazi, nje i-ultrasound ukuphola ekuqaleni kokukhulelwa ekuhleleni komndeni. Ungitshela ukuthi ucabanga ukuthi konke kuhamba kahle, ingane yakhe inyakaza njalo futhi isisu sakhe sesikhule kakhulu. Wabona ukukhulelwa ezinyangeni ezine nengxenye, sekwephuzile kakhulu ekukhishweni kokukhulelwa ngokuzithandela eFrance. Wanikezwa ukuya eSpain kodwa akafunanga ukunyamalala lo mntwana wakusasa agcine ezizwa enyakaza, “owayenelungelo lenhlanhla yakhe”. Umlomo wesibeletho unwebeka ngokushesha, akafuni i-epidural. Uyaphephetha, uyageza, ngiyamasaja, ulangazelele zonke izeluleko zami futhi uyazisebenzisa. Ufuna ukuthi ingane yakhe ilunge ngazo zonke izindlela. Ukubeletha kuthatha amahora amane, okungeyona into eningi ekuletheni kokuqala.
U-Héloïse akakwazi ukuzibamba izinyembezi
Sixoxa ngezinduku eziphukile. Ungitshela ngezimo zokukhulelwa:
– Ngangimthanda ngempela isoka lami. Sinezinyanga ezimbili sindawonye, sifonelana njalo. Sasisekolishi elilodwa. Kwakuwuthando lwami lokuqala. Ngolunye usuku, ngikhohlwe iphilisi lami, kanye kuphela u-Anna, ngiyafunga kuwe, uyangikholwa?
Yebo kunjalo ngiyamkholwa.
– Ngicabanga ukuthi yingakho ngakhulelwa. Ngamafuphi, wangishiya wafuna enye, iminyaka yakhe, futhi wangitshela ukuthi ngangingakaze ngimthande ngempela. Ezinyangeni ezintathu ngemva kokuhlukana kwethu, ngabona ukuthi ngikhulelwe ngibonga udokotela owayezonginika isitifiketi sethenisi. Kwakukhona yena kuphela. Ngazama ukuxhumana naye izikhathi eziningi, kodwa angizange ngiphumelele. Lo mntwana uyisithelo sothando oluqotho. Bengimthanda lomfana, damn bengimthanda.
Wakhala uHéloïse, wakhala kakhulu. Akafuni ukungitshela ngomndeni wakhe, imvelaphi yakhe. Ngibona nje ukuthi intokazi enhle kabi enamehlo ansundu amangalisayo akhanya uma ibuhlungu, izinwele ezimagagasi ezithambisa ngosiba. Muhle, ugqoke izicathulo ezinhle ze-suede, isikhwama sesikhumba esinombala bekamela kanye nejazi elihle le-wool duffle. Akafuni ukushiya lutho efayeleni lakhe, ikakhulukazi umazisi wakhe. Uyenqaba ukuvumela lolu thando oludlulayo ukuthi luguqule inkambo yempilo yakhe unomphela.
Umtshela ukuthi uyaxolisa ngakho konke
Uthukile, uthi unelungelo lempilo efana nekayise, asikho isizathu sokuthi kuhluke kuye. Wengeza ngokuthi akazimele, abazali bakhe banzima kakhulu futhi bangaxoshwa. emigwaqweni. Sixoxa ndawonye ngokuhlupheka okuzomfica yena nengane yakhe. Ngiyamkholisa ukuthi ashiye umlando wakhe wezokwelapha kanye nencwadi yengane. Akwamukelayo. Ngiphinde ngimtshele ukuthi mina ngokwami ngibhala indaba yokufika kwakhe, yokuhlangana kwethu, yakho konke okwenzekayo, ngiyishiye efayeleni. Ngiyamchazela ukuthi ngokubona kwami lokhu kuyingxenye yokunakekelwa kwami njengombelethisi. Ungibonga ngomzwelo. Safika isikhathi sokuzalwa. U-Héloïse wahamba nengane yakhe ngendlela ephawulekayo futhi wagxilisa wonke amandla akhe ukuze ayisize ngangokunokwenzeka. Wazalwa ngo-4:18 am Wayengumfanyana omuhle wamakhilogremu amane, ephapheme kakhulu. Wamthatha masinyane wambheka, wamthinta wamhlebela amazwi endlebeni. Wamanga naye isikhathi eside. Umtshela ukuthi uyaxolisa ngakho konke, kodwa angathanda ukukucabanga kubazali abasha kunasebhokisini likadoti esibhedlela saseSpain. Ngabashiya bobabili, futhi bachitha ihora elihle ndawonye. Wamnika ibhodlela lakhe lokuqala. Lowo engabhapathiza uJosefa wayehlakaniphe kakhulu: hhayi ukukhala, hhayi umsindo. Ukubuka, ukubheka, ukubuka okwengeziwe. Ngo-5:30 ekuseni, wangishayela ucingo. Wayevalelise kuye.
Kuyisiqalo sempilo entsha kuye, uyangitshela
Ngambamba uJosefa ngezingalo zami ngamnika umhlengikazi owamhlasela ngesihlilingi ubusuku bonke. Ngangazi, noma ngabe akukho okuqinisekisiwe, ukuthi ngeke baphinde babonane. Ngahlala noHéloïse owayengafuni ukuphumula. Wayephethwe yisisu futhi elokhu ekhononda, nakuba wayengenalutho
kusho ngesikhathi sokubeletha. Ekuseni ngovivi, wanquma ukuhamba. Ekhoneni legumbi, wayeshiye incwadi yefayela lomntwana. Ngaphezu kwesizinda sakhe, wanikeza incazelo yakhe engokomzimba neyesoka lakhe: “Sobabili sasibade, sinamehlo ansundu, izinwele ezimagagasi, sibukeka ngokufanayo, kubonakala sengathi senza umbhangqwana omuhle kakhulu. . ” Amanye amagama nawo: “Ngiyakuthanda, nsizwa yami, kodwa ukuphila kwenze ukukhetha okungajwayelekile.” Ulwele ukuza ngakuvumela. Ungakhathazeki, uzoba nabazali abakhulu futhi ngithemba impilo enhle. ” Ekuseni kakhulu, wahamba njengoba ayefike. Angiphindanga ngambona u-Héloïse. Ngavalelisa kuJosefa ezinsukwini ezinhlanu emva kokuzalwa kwakhe, ngaphambi kokuba ahambe aye enkulisa. Mhlawumbe ngizophinde ngimbone? Kubonakala sengathi lokho kwenzeka. Ngethemba ukuthi uzojabula. U-Héloïse akaphindanga wahoxa. UJosefa watholwa izinyanga ezimbili nezinsuku ezimbalwa ngemva kokuzalwa kwakhe. Futhi angingabazi ukuthi uyabajabulisa abazali bakhe.
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