Umfundi uMillie Gaskin uyinkanyezi yangempela yaseBrithani. Intombazane yakwazi ukunqoba i-anorexia futhi yakhuthaza abanye abantu ukuthi balwe nalesi sifo.
UMillie Gaskin emncintiswaneni wokudansa. Uboniswe ngakwesokudla
I-yogurt enamafutha amancane ngesidlo sasekuseni nesipinashi ngesidlo sasemini - empeleni, lokho kudla okuphelele komfundi uMillie Gaskin, owathi ngobusuku bangonyaka ka-2017 wanquma ukuthi "uzoqala impilo entsha".
Ulande uhlelo lokusebenza oludumile lokubala ikhalori futhi akazibonanga eselutha ukudla. Ngokuqondile, kusukela ekungabikho kwakhe.
Isitshudeni esineminyaka engama-22 ubudala besivele sifuna ukuletha umzimba waso ube sesimweni esihle somzimba: sidle ukudla okunomsoco, silandele inkomba ye-BJU, sihambise okuningi… Kungabonakala sengathi umkhondo wekhalori kulokhu ulusizo olukhulu.
Kuphela manje uMillie wabona ngokushesha ukuthi wayengafuni ukudla ku-1 kcal ngosuku olunikezwa uhlelo - ngemuva kwakho konke, "kwakukuningi" noma kunjalo. "NgoMashi, ngangidla ama-calories angaphansi kwama-200 ngosuku," kuvuma le ntombazane enkulumweni eyayinayo nengosi yeMirror.
“Ngangivivinya umzimba nsuku zonke ejimini, ngaya eyunivesithi futhi ngibuya ngahamba ngezinyawo kuphela futhi ngakhetha imizila emide kakhulu - futhi konke lokhu kwenzelwa ukushiswa kwamakhalori ambalwa,” kukhumbula uMillie.
Ukufunda kwelinye idolobha kumsizile ukufihla ukuthanda kwakhe ngokwehlisa isisindo emndenini wakhe isikhathi eside. Kodwa-ke, ngemuva kokuthi intombazane ihlangane nonina, yakhala i-alamu.
Abazali baqaphela ukuthi uMillie akadli lutho futhi bamyisa emtholampilo. Kodwa-ke, ngisho nesiguli esineminyaka engu-22 simangazwe impendulo yongoti.
Odokotela batshela lo mama okhathazekile ukuthi akukho okumele akhathazeke ngakho. Isisindo sendodakazi yakhe sisemngceleni osezingeni eliphansi, okusho ukuthi akukho lutho olusongela impilo yakhe.
Noma kunjalo, isimo sikaMillie saba sibi usuku nosuku. Uqhubeke ngokwenqaba ukudla futhi wehluleka ukuziletha ukuthi adle noma yini. Ngemuva kwamasonto ambalwa emizamo engaphumelelanga yokondla indodakazi yakhe, umama wakhe waphinde waphendukela kodokotela - kwathi intombazane yatholakala ukuthi ine-anorexia.
“Izinga le-glucose lingaphansi kwesijwayelekile. Ngangenqatshelwe ukuya noma kuphi ngedwa, ukushayela imoto, nokuphuma endlini ngokuphelele (ngaphandle kokuya kudokotela). Bengijwayele ukungena emdansweni, kodwa ngisho sekuvaliwe, ”kusho uMilli.
“Bangiyise esibhedlela esasibukeka njengejele. Ezinye iziguli zazibukeka njengamaZombi, zingenampilo kuzo. Ubaba wathi wayengeke athande ukungibona njengabo. Imvamisa ngangimane ngilale ngigoqiwe phansi emtholampilo bese ngikhala. "
Noma kunjalo, ukuba ngaphansi kweso eliqinile lodokotela kuyenzele kahle le ntombazane. Ubeke isisindo esincane, kepha hhayi nhlobo ngenxa yokuthi ukujabulisa umndeni noma ukuhamba ngokushesha "mahhala".
Inguquko kwaba ukubona ukuthi umzimba wakhe wawubhujiswa phambi kwamehlo akhe. UMillie uvumile ukuthi ukulahleka kwezinwele kungazelelwe kwamthusa kakhulu.
“Ngangigeza ngavele ngabona ukuthi izinwele zami zazisele egumbini lokugezela. Ngabheka phansi ngabona ukuthi amathambo ayelukhuni kangakanani. Kwangethusa kakhulu. Kusukela lapho, ngaqala ukuzama ukululama, ”kusho uGaskin.
Futhi wabeka umfutho wakhe omkhulu kuwo. UMillie wayengakakwazi ukudla kakhulu futhi esaba ukuba ngcono ngaso sonke isikhathi, kodwa akazange acabange ukuyeka.
UMillie Gaskin nabangane bakhe emcimbini wakhe wokuzalwa
Ngaphezu kwalokho, umndeni wamkhokhela isifundo se-psychotherapy, ukuze intombazane ikwazi ukubhekana nohlangothi lwengqondo lokuphazamiseka kwakhe.
Esinye sezikhathi ezibalulekile senzeke emcimbini wokuzalwa kaMillie. Umngani wamphekela ikhekhe, futhi intombazane yosuku lokuzalwa "yahlanya", yanquma ukuthi izophoqeleka ukuthi idle uphudingi wonke. Lapho esepholile, wabona ukuthi wonke umuntu wayejabule ukuzithathela iqatha lekhekhe - wanquma ukuzama kancane. "Kusukela lapho, bengidla iqebelengwana elincane lekhekhe nsuku zonke," kusho uGaskin.
Ngenkathi enciphisa isisindo, waba umlutha wokugijima, yize kungengenxa yezinjongo zempilo, kepha ngenhloso yokushisa ama-calories amaningi. Kodwa-ke, ukuhlala ubuthakathaka njalo akuvumelanga uMillie ukuthi ajabulele ukugijima.
Ngemuva kokuthi intombazane iqine, yafuna ukuqhubeka nezemidlalo. “Kungithathe izinyanga eziyisikhombisa ukuthi ngiqale ukugijima. Ngibe senginquma ukuthi nakanjani ngizobamba iqhaza emjahweni wokupha, ”kusho uMilli.
UGaskin, 22, ubambe iqhaza kwi-Asics 48 kilometre run eLondon. Wafika entanjeni ngemizuzu eyi-XNUMX nje. “Ngavele ngafaka ama-headphone ami ngabe sengivula umculo. Futhi ngangizizwa ngiphila, ”kusho uMillie.
Eminyakeni emibili ngemuva kokuqala ukwehla kwesisindo ngokweqile, uMillie Gaskin namanje akakwazi ukuziqhayisa ngempilo yama-Olimpiki.
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Kusukela ngoDisemba 2017, uMillie Gaskin waqala ukuncipha ngokushesha.
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“Ngisasaba ukukhuluphala, futhi ngizwa kabi njalo uma ngidla. Kusabonakala kimi ukuthi angiyifanele i-dessert… Zonke izinsuku kimi kuyimpi yesisindo sami, ”kusho le ntombazane. Noma kunjalo, uyaqhubeka nokulwela impilo, usebenza nodokotela wezifo zengqondo futhi ukholelwa ukuthi ngelinye ilanga uzobuyela kwifomu lakhe langaphambilini.