Okuqukethwe
“Ngazizwa njengobaba ngokushesha nje lapho ngigone izingane zami ewodini lababelethayo”
“Mina nomkami sathola ukuthi ukhulelwe izingane ezimbili ngoJuni 2009. Ngangiqala ngqa ukutshelwa ukuthi ngizoba ubaba! Ngangimangele futhi ngesikhathi esifanayo ngijabule kakhulu, nakuba ngangazi ukuthi kusho ukuthi ukuphila kwethu kwakuzoshintsha. Ngazibuza imibuzo eminingi. Kodwa sanquma ukuzigcina izingane nomlingani wami. Ngathi kimi: ibingo, izoba yinhle futhi ibe yinkimbinkimbi kakhulu. Ngijwayele ukubhekana nezinto ngesikhathi, lapho zenzeka. Kodwa lapho, ngazitshela ukuthi kwakuzoba umsebenzi ophindwe kabili! Ukuzalwa kwakuhlelelwe u-January 2010. Phakathi naleso sikhathi, sanquma ukushintsha ukuphila kwethu, sathuthela eningizimu yeFrance. Ngenze umsebenzi othile endlini entsha, ukuze wonke umuntu azinze kahle. Sihlele yonke into ukuze sinikeze izinga elithile lempilo ezinganeni zethu.
Ukubeletha ngobude
Ngo-D-Day, safika esibhedlela futhi kwadingeka silinde isikhathi eside ukuze sinakekelwe. Kwakukhona ukudiliva okuyisishiyagalolunye ngesikhathi esisodwa, konke kuyinkimbinkimbi. Ukubeletha komkami kwathatha cishe amahora angu-9, kwakuyinde kakhulu, wabeletha okokugcina. Ngikhumbula kakhulu ubuhlungu bami beqolo nalapho ngibona izingane zami. Ngazizwa nginguBABA zisuka nje! Ngikwazile ukubagona ngokushesha okukhulu. Indodana yami yafika kuqala. Ngemva komzuzwana wesikhumba nesikhumba nomama wakhe, ngimgone ezingalweni zami. Khona-ke, ngendodakazi yami, ngangigqoka yona kuqala, ngaphambi kukanina. Wafika ngemva kwemizuzu engu-15 umfowabo, waba nenkinga yokuphuma. Ngazizwa sengathi ngangisemsebenzini ngaleso sikhathi, ngemva kokuwagqoka ngokushintshana. Ezinsukwini ezimbalwa ezalandela, ngangihlehla ngiphuma esibhedlela ngibheke endlini, ngiyoqedela ukulungiselela ukufika kwawo wonke umuntu. Lapho siphuma esibhedlela, nomkami, sasazi ukuthi konke kwase kushintshile. Besibabili sibane besesihamba.
Ngibuyele ekhaya ngo-4
Ukubuyela ekhaya kwakumnandi kakhulu. Sasizizwa sisodwa emhlabeni. Ngahileleka ngokushesha okukhulu: ebusuku nezingane, ukuthenga, ukuhlanza, ukudla. Umkami wayekhathele kakhulu, kwakudingeka alulame ekukhulelweni nasekubeletheni. Wayesethwele izingane izinyanga eziyisishiyagalombili, ngakho ngacabanga, manje kukimi ukubhekana nakho. Ngenza konke ukumsiza ekuphileni kwakhe kwansuku zonke nezingane zethu. Ngemva kwesonto, kwadingeka ngibuyele emsebenzini. Yize nginenhlanhla yokuba nomsebenzi lapho ngisebenza khona izinsuku eziyishumi kuphela ngenyanga, ngigcine izingane ezizelwe kanye nesigqi emsebenzini, izinyanga eziningi. Ngokushesha sezwa isisindo sokukhathala emahlombe ethu. Izinyanga ezintathu zokuqala zazinezimpawu zokubhala amabhodlela ayishumi nesithupha ngosuku amawele, ubuncane bokuvuka kathathu ubusuku ngabunye, nakho konke lokho, kuze kube yilapho u-Eliot eseneminyaka emi-3 ubudala. Ngemva kwesikhashana, kwadingeka sihlele. Indodana yethu yayikhala kakhulu ebusuku. Ekuqaleni, izingane zazinathi ekamelweni lethu izinyanga ezine noma ezinhlanu. Sasisaba i-MSN, sasihlala eduze kwabo ngaso sonke isikhathi. Base belala ekamelweni elilodwa. Kodwa indodana yami ayizange ilale, yayikhala kakhulu. Ngakho ngalala naye cishe izinyanga ezintathu zokuqala. Indodakazi yethu yayilala yodwa, ingenandaba. U-Eliot waqinisekiswa ukuba ngakimi, salala sobabili, sibheke ngakumi.
Impilo yansuku zonke namawele
Nomkami, sakwenza lokho iminyaka emithathu kuya kwemine, sanikela ngakho konke ngenxa yezingane zethu. Ukuphila kwethu kwansuku zonke kwakugxile ekuphileni nezingane. Asizange sibe neholide lezithandani phakathi neminyaka embalwa yokuqala. Ogogo nomkhulu abazange balokothe bathathe izingane ezimbili. Kuyiqiniso ukuthi ngaleso sikhathi, umbhangqwana wahlala esihlalweni esingemuva. Ngicabanga ukuthi kumele niqine ngaphambi kokuba nithole abantwana, nisondelane kakhulu futhi nixoxe kakhulu, ngoba ukuthola amawele kuthatha amandla amaningi. Ngicabanga nokuthi izingane zigcina umbhangqwana uhlukene kakhulu, esikhundleni sokuwusondeza, ngiyaqiniseka. Ngakho, kule minyaka emibili edlule, besinikezana iholidi lesonto lonke, ngaphandle kwamawele. Sibashiye kubazali bami, siseholidini emaphandleni, futhi izinto zihamba kahle. Sobabili siyahamba siyobonana futhi. Kuzwakala kumnandi, ngoba nsuku zonke, ngiyisikhukhukazi sikababa wangempela, ngitshale kakhulu ezinganeni zami, futhi lokho njalo. Ngihamba nje izingane ziyangifuna. Nomkami, samisa isiko elithile, ikakhulukazi kusihlwa. Siyashintshana ngokuchitha imizuzu engaba ngu-20 nengane ngayinye. Siyazixoxela ngosuku lwethu, ngibahambisele ikhanda nozwane besakhuluma nami. Sithi sodwa “I love you very much from the universe”, siqabulane sigonofelane, ngixoxa indaba futhi sitshelane imfihlo. Umkami wenza okufanayo ngasohlangothini lwakhe. Ngicabanga ukuthi kubalulekile ezinganeni. Bazizwa bethandwa futhi belalelwa. Ngivame ukubahalalisela, ngokushesha nje lapho bethuthuka noma bezuza okuthile, okubalulekile noma cha, ngaleyo ndaba. Ngifunde izincwadi ezimbalwa ezikhuluma ngokusebenza kwengqondo yezingane, ikakhulukazi lezo zikaMarcel Rufo. Ngizama ukuqonda ukuthi kungani beba nokuquleka eminyakeni enjalo, nokuthi basabela kanjani. Sikhuluma kakhulu ngemfundo yabo nomlingani wami. Sikhuluma kakhulu ngezingane zethu, ukusabela kwazo, lokho esizipha khona ukuba zidle, izinto eziphilayo noma cha, amaswidi, yiziphi iziphuzo, njll. Njengobaba, ngiyazama ukuqina, kuyindima yami. Kodwa ngemva kwesivunguvungu nesivunguvungu, ngiyabachazela ngesinqumo sami nokuthi ngenzenjani ukuze bangaphinde bacasuke futhi bathethiswe. Futhi futhi, kungani singakwazi ukwenza lokhu noma lokhuya. Kubalulekile ukuthi baqonde ukuvinjelwa. Ngesikhathi esifanayo, ngibanika inkululeko enkulu. Kodwa hey, ngingumuntu obona kude kakhulu, ngikhetha “ukuvikela kunokwelapha”. Ngibatshela ngaso sonke isikhathi ukuthi baqaphele bangazilimazi. Sine-swimming pool, ngakho-ke sisawabuka kakhulu. Kodwa manje njengoba sebekhulile, konke kulula. Isigqi sipholile futhi! “